But then I see myself in the mirror and I feel every lazy pound I have packed on because of my sedentary life style and my couch potato ways. I am my lightest when I race a marathon at 126-128 pounds, but I have let it creep up to 138!! I haven't weighed that much since before my anemia was diagnosed. I have developed terrible eating habits i.e. eat everything in sight and the amount of alcohol I have put away in comparison to the past has increased (Call me a wannabe alchy if you will) beyond what I feel comfortable with.
Switching to nights permanently has definitely helped. Even on my off days I stay up all night until about 9-10 am. I have even attempted two 5 mile runs this week at an albeit very conservative pace. The foot doesn't scream FIRE, but it does hurt and there is absolutely no way in heck I can start training with it like this.
So, I finally cracked and went to the Twinsburg Fitness Center and got a membership. It seemed so stupid at first, I mean I work downtown at the main campus of CCF and we have not one, but two gyms available. However, the idea of working a 12+ hr day with nearly 2 hours of additional driving makes working out a dream. The spin classess never seem to correlate with my schedule and I am not going to drive 50+ miles to go to the gym and back, hence my TFC membership.
I ran last night at 1:00 am and at 5:30 am packed up my gear and headed to the gym for my new membership. Luck was on my side and because I am a Reminderville resident and I work for CCF (get this) it's $22/month -- that's it!! That was cheaper than my JCC membership -- SCORE!
I changed my clothes quickly and hit the 6:00 am spin. TY was leading the class and gave me the run down about the class as I warmed up. The workout was great. I was practically sweating like this chick (I'll take it -- she's fast)! Everything was based on cadence and quarter turns and I pushed myself pretty hard. I am sure my ass is gonna be sore after I finally get some sleep. His music also matched the paces (lots of Green Day, All American Rejects and Linkin' Park -- and I love them all!). I felt very weak and out of shape. TY talked to me after the class inviting me on an outdoor ride that would be starting when the weather finally broke and stating that if I came to his class I would get stronger -- I sure hope so. I am a little disappointed with how soft I have become (literally). Hell I didn't even like taking off my shorts to snorkel in my bikini bottom in Hawaii' my ass had (still has) so much cottage cheese, but hopefully I can tighten this sh*t up and lock it down.
** Just a side note: My weight has rocked from 113-145 pounds since I was 21. I know how I look and how I feel. I hate that a woman's weight is like a white elephant in the room, that no one can talk about. I am not a small girl for cripes sake. I am 5'7" and I like to eat -- a lot, but there is no reason why I have to hide my additional smooshiness from anybody or lack-therof. The thing is -- we all get older, we all age, we all have our own demons to battle.
